S.Ho.O.T

can't stop fallin in love

2010-10-16T19:42:00.000+07:00

with You...
that's what i want for the rest of my life !

down up

2010-10-16T19:37:00.000+07:00

i saw my fellow blogger...
some how they are inspiring me so much...
but some how too i envy them...
of course in a positive way...
i am glad have some friends who pursue their dream...
instead of stuck in something routines that they don't even like...
i am on my track to pursue my dream too...
one wise man said, when you're in right track to your dream,
you would do that as:
- enjoy -- you will always enjoy doing everything towards your dream, enjoy being yourself
- easy -- how hard it is, how difficult the challenges n hindrances, it won't stop you, because you always can cope with it
- fruitful -- from what you're doing will produce or create lot of things new, that bless other people and of course yourself !
even i'm on the right track, i mean i'm in pursuit of my dream, sometime i felt so down... more to down than up...
but one wise said again... sometime you need to go down or move back a few steps to go up and leap forward !

is it right?

2010-10-16T19:04:00.000+07:00

or wrong?

when you will know what you're in to right or wrong...
and how you will get out of it, if it seemed you're in the wrong path...
what it should be the exit strategy?
sometime i was thinking, i don't have any exit strategy in this kind of situation...
i should've been prepare more before walk into it

the answer is GOD the source of all sources !
yeah but... Pa i'm like in the middle of nowhere... and cannot or don't want to feel You i don't know which one worse :(
please ... i need your revelation !

time oh time

2010-10-16T18:55:00.000+07:00

it's middle of october already... around 2 months and a half till end of year 2010, i felt sad more than happy, coz though a lot of things happened in my life, but sometime i feel need to turn back time to some time when i want to re-correct all things that were mistaken...
but the Word said for everything there is a season !
same with time always running forward, so do I need to move forward...
meanwhile i just wanna say:

" time please stop running first... just walk !!! "

sorriso

2010-10-02T08:53:00.000+07:00

means SMILE in italian

it's good for my health,

i think it's great too for yours

to be or not to be

2010-10-02T08:39:00.001+07:00

SENSITIVE

some conditions need me to be one, the other it would be better not to be one...
coz some time... it might hurt my feeling or the pride of a man ! or could put me in jeopardy
haha...
but once again...
to be a man that be or not to be one also need wisdom
so all these can be experienced by other around me:
- a soft answer turns away wrath
- pleasant words are like a honeycomb, sweetness to the soul and health to the bones
- a word fitly spoken is like apples of gold in settings of silver

Writing

2010-09-20T08:31:00.000+07:00

is it easy to write a masterpiece?

yeah for my work-related means a song with good lyrics

for me it's kinda not too easy...

now i try and force my self to write songs,

i know it takes me have to learn lot from other great lyrics and songs,

and urge me to read lot of books

practice makes perfect right?

pencil [n] eraser

2010-09-20T08:14:00.000+07:00

finally show up

2010-09-20T08:11:00.002+07:00

the awaiting confirmation 'in a relationship with...' status at my FB finally show up...
i just realized it this morning, her name showed up...
yeah silly or just simple matters ^^
but it's been quite a long time since first time we're in relationship, a few days later from the Day, i changed the status to in relationship with - and it's awaiting confirmation from 'the girl side'
still until last time i saw, not change, and i just thought yeah no need, coz the matters is in our heart,
but this morning... hahaha... just make me smile
maybe too childish or exaggerate to make it matters,
but for me that simple status thing shows how honest you to yourself and people about your relationship and that means your feeling toward that someone special, it can talk about how you fight for the love if there are some people that concern you against bout it at your friend's list and can see that,
if you think that you are comfort, safe and loved by someone and vice-versa then you don't have to be ashamed to publish it
just be honest to our heart !

The Switch

2010-09-20T07:51:00.002+07:00

love duet Jason Bateman and Jennifer Aniston here, just watch the movie yesterday with some of my friends, unfortunately my girl couldn't join me

a typical light a bit comedy drama movie ...

but from this simple movie I learn something about relationship though, as friends, best friends, parent-child and lovers,

feelings should be uttered in a right time, but the most important thing just follow your heart don't deny it

while watching this movie, I remembered the day I watched some romantic and light drama movies like this with my girl and we just learn a lot of good-relationship values from it,

some movie like You, Me and Dupree, Marley and Me, 50 First Dates, Meet the Parents, etc

remind us always to be honest to ourselves, our heart !

my other friend - a couple that have watched this movie with me yesterday, just didn't get the message, and they said this movie is sucked, but overall I just like this light romantic drama, it's kinda connected somewhere the inside story with the inside me

other things, still Jennifer Aniston looks stunning in her old age ^^

FoOdLiCiOuS

2010-09-18T10:17:00.000+07:00

I welcome you to my

FoOdLiCiOus

please take a look and share info for any foods that delicious anywhere

music meets movie

2010-09-18T10:11:00.000+07:00

please...

meets...

recently, i'm trying not to watch movie in common way, but have to pay some more attention to the music scoring through the films to learn the music,
now i watch movie at my laptop in my music studio, with keyboard and full set of scoring sound is set so when the scenes come, i tried to follow the score and the next round i'll try to make my own score...
and it's kinda fun ^^
yeah i have watched a lot of movies, if you come to my bedroom, there are i-don't-know-how-many DVD collections of mine since college till now, but nowadays more in soft-copy files :)
despite i'm sharing about my movies sources, i just wanna say that i'm learning new things in music, composing a score, music illustrations for scenes that i watch and it's so interesting
can you imagine if movies or motion pictures without music, i'd bet the horror or thriller scenes won't be that thrilling, the romantic or funny one won't be felt like that...
so i wanna say: please... music... meets movie... ! be a good couple okay !

admiring beauty

2010-09-18T01:24:00.000+07:00

like a woman with a clear neck line

like a woman with an appropriate clothes

implicit

2010-09-18T01:04:00.000+07:00

so(m)e sm(i)les and ki(s)ses mean a lot(s) to people the(y) l(o)ve and care abo(u)t

a friend out of town, who usually we chat things a lot,

share things a lot, play music a lot,

but now we are separated by lan,

although you will come to my city,

i really hope we can share things like we did before,

i remember the day we promised not to forget each other,

so...

thanks for being a best friend for me

c.h.a.n.g.e

2010-09-18T00:32:00.000+07:00

quite a long time I've never took a glimpse on my blog,

Here I am... back to bloggin'

debut topic for my life on this 3rd quarter of 2010 is change

I need to change... but I also have changed from previous state of blogging, the question is whether I'm changing to be a better person or not...

Nowadays, I've been in my very bad condition, my relationship with God is very very... ehm... sadly :(

Deep in my heart, I realized I need Him and want to go back so bad...

buy my flesh kept me from drawing near to Him

seeing my fellow bloggers here, I've been inspired and have the courage to CHANGE !

It's Matter

2010-06-08T00:31:00.000+07:00

Used to

2010-06-08T00:28:00.000+07:00

I used to think like this toward my friends

to figure out who the real friend is

but no need now!

The Way I See it

2010-05-26T11:10:00.000+07:00

the way i see LOVE is different...

the ENLIGHTENMENT came...

i will CHANGE view based on love...

Leap ^^

2010-04-30T11:02:00.000+07:00

one of the thing that i want in my life when i was at the high school is one day i will go back to my school as a teacher or at least as a minister, preaching and leading worship through music, it's not happened yet, but God allow me to teach as a music teacher at one of the international primary school at Jakarta. i will be dealing with first grader till fifth grader students :) and you know what, kids now are different huh? i've done the micro teaching, first thing they asked: "Sir, do you have any facebook account???"
later i'll share in another post about these children and now i will be start joining the same 'title' with my friend at surabaya Ms.Debora Adiwidjaja.
i believe this is the starting.

i have made decision in my life to take a chance, take a LEAP of faith, trusting God, that sometime it took another paths to go to our final destination and who know it the best except God the creator of my life's blueprints. i also take aside or a bit to postpone my will to have another education with bachelor degree in music, but i'll equip myself with some music education too but more in music courses, so i still have a lot of flexible time.
When we are focus and faithful, God will open the way, and He did. Proverbs said, people might making lot of plans, but at the end God's ones are established.
i changed my plan for this year, of course by praying, sharing to parents, friend, and most important thing with MYSELF 'coz sometime it took too many thinking for me to make decision, but started this year i'll make all decisions firmly with God beside me.

so...

i took this part-time music teaching at international school, even they offered me to be a full-time teacher and asked me to teach computers and math also coz i have that backgrounds.
God started to open another way by giving me a job, to make a scoring for tv series (sinetron) my first one is comedy and it's from MNC productions, one of my goal in music scoring God has revealed it.
yesterday one of my father's friend, suddenly gave me a magazine Peluang Usaha and he said that when he saw that magazine with some topics in it, God reminded him 'bout me (my father sometime sharing about me to him), when i read that magazine, i've been inspired by the topics, and start thinking to make a study about that music business and start to act. yup it still around music.

i believe Yer 29:11 and Efs 3:20!
in God i trust !

Home Alone

2010-04-17T21:42:00.000+07:00

have to enjoy !

Dream Child

2010-04-17T21:18:00.004+07:00

i had dream last night...
about being a father...

the exacts scenes i don't really remember, but here it is what i do remember...

it started with, the scene when i have my first child was born, it was a cute little boy!
i'm so glad... in my thinking right now, i do want to have a boy as my first born
the scene took place at the hospital or some room like nursery room, strange.. it's a bit black and white the scene -_-
i was very happy, i think that was after he just got delivered, i saw his mom's face :) fortunately she was someone who is with me now (usually or more often i dreamed with unfamiliar faces or people, fiction)
i remember, the scene where i kissed my little boy all over his body ^^

but suddenly, the scene was changed to another segment of my life...
i had another child, the second one... and it was a girl, pretty little girl, just like i wanted in real life now
the scene took place, when she was around 3 years old i think,
coz she could talk already and was very active...
in this dream fragment, i didn't see the mom and my first born again...
totally i dreamed about this pretty little girl, how she acted and talked and interacted with me

another scene was she was playing with me in the room, lean on me, hug me, kissed me, clung on my neck,
all my body became a tree for her and she climbed all over my body
she was very pretty and talkative (bawel... ^^), asked so many things, but i just smiled and answered all of her questions, even the silly one, and couldn't stop staring at her playing cheerfully
i remember what i was thinking in that scene, "i love this girl so much... my little girl..."

after that, the scene changed
it took place outdoor, out side the house or someone house, i didn't know where it was, not in my real life as far as i remember and still this scene was about my little girl...
now she could run and playing all around the park or little garden outside
with some of other older children around 6 or 7 years old i think...
i just couldn't stop staring at her running from one place to another with a smile on her and also at my face ^^
until suddenly it's raining...
i called her to get in... but she wouldn't...
and you know what? i allowed her ^^
i played with her too in the rain... there was a pond there,
she's suddenly jumped down to that pond, and play with water and try to dive in to the water playing 'ci-luk'ba' from the water with me, the pond's water level was not deep maybe around her chest, but after a few minutes, there's the time i took her out from the water and whisper in her ear, said "honey... i think it's enough... time to take a bath..." and there she was... understood what i was saying and obey me directly and walk with me inside...
and the dream was end!

i don't know what make this dream came in the first place, but i just realized, maybe that's what i am going to do with my little children later... just playing with them... don't want to ask them not to do this and that... i'll just let them playing with their own senses and i'm with them teach them with love and care! i believe they'll understand!

...

2010-04-17T20:27:00.000+07:00

Would You?

2010-04-17T20:17:00.000+07:00

no... in the opposite, i urged to text and call you,

but still sometime you wouldn't talk to me and didn't reply my text or call

Had Fun

2010-04-12T16:41:00.000+07:00

after quite a long time and since i've got back to jakarta,
finally yesterday i had fun with some of my best friends...
a group from north jakarta gadink region :p

with my girl, my best friends who just got married, and our little group
there were six of us ^^ 2 couples, 1 single, 1 was not with her couple :)
we HAD FUN !!!
after i provoked to have a karaoke yesterday afternoon through social networking utilities
twitter...
then there we were yesterday, singing like crazy in karaoke,
i've prepared some new playlist from what i usually sing,
while others picked to sing some old songs...
a very2 old songs :p
our songs when we were at elementary or junior high school maybe ^^

after two hours of karaoke, we got tired and starving :)
so we went to a new claypot rice food place called Uncle Lee
near to the karaoke place
we ate claypot rice with baikut 'coz it has a promotion period
with medium size good enough for 3-4 people, we ordered 2
and got discount 50% :)
after we ate, we hung around there for a while, chat and nostalgic
remembering the moments we had together when we were single a few years ago
now some of us already have couple and one of us has got married

sharing, laughing and telling secrets when we were still not hook up like this formation before
talk about our love life before,
relationship between us,
intrigues and so on
haha... so refreshing...

i realized, decisions we made before that make us today ^^
and i believe God's perfect plan for me is still happening!

The Day

2010-04-10T22:28:00.000+07:00

Today...

I went to the wedding of my childhood home's friends (my neighbor) ^^

We usually play together when we were kids, but now he's got married :)

Her mom is a friend of my mom, actually I accompanied my mom,

coz she's the one who has been invited and I was represent my pop who couldn't come

Quite a long time though, I haven't gone to a wedding party with my parents,

Nowadays, I often went to my own friend's wedding.

By attending this wedding, I am thinking about my wedding day one day ^^

doesn't mean I've never thought about this before in my life,
actually I have some imaginations and wishes about The Day,
so it's not only girl or woman who is thinking or imagining about wedding day

With time goes by and life continuous,
environment and situation change up and down
Sometime, thinking about The Day and marriage life,
isn't as easy and smooth as I thought before when I was younger

Now, I'm walking through a lot of things in life
Maybe it's still not the hardest thing but I believe it's the process to be a better man
I know one day, The Day will come even though the process is not easy!

Walking to the Dream

2010-04-09T12:50:00.000+07:00

I'm walking to my dream

I'm not walking dreaming

I don't sleep walking

Even the path still unpaved and unclear

I know I'm on the right track

'coz I've felt peace within me

I admit it a bit of scaring and worrying

I know I haven't got my best out of it

Many time I want to give up

but I know I can't

I haven't arrived yet

to say I'm living my dream

but I know one day I will

and that time I know for sure

it's not by myself

but He who strengthens me

thank You for walking with me!

Wierdness

2010-03-19T01:18:00.000+07:00

Stand Up!

2010-03-19T01:14:00.000+07:00

finally i see this page again...
after some 'lost-in-sad-way' journey a couple of these days...
but just like my fellow blogger said "that's what the blog for... u just write what u want to write... anything... everything..."

actually i wanna write about some 'moments' i remembered when i've made some wrong decisions or choices in the past,
walked in it and ended up with some failures...
i recall these while i was driving went home and held up in jakarta's usual traffic jam.

i will share a bit what wrong decisions or choices were...
from my track record, i was counted as one of smart boy since kindergarten till junior high
all was different when i entered senior high school,

i successfully entered one of the most prestigious high school in town from academic sight,
this school is one of the active school who sends their students to world's Olympics for math, science, english, physics, arts or anything represents Indonesia
so i met with so many smart people.

some wrongs or not-so-right choices or decisions, failures that i made:
- failed to get into IPA class at my 3rd grade in senior high (my idealism as a boy)
- still forced to learn IPA from special courses non school for a year; so in my daily class at school i learned social, but after class i learned science
- foolishly and arrogantly maybe, took only IPA examinations for SPMB and failed to get into any of those prestigious government universities
- chose university following friends
- chose major that i didn't understand the subjects as the result of i couldn't enter the major that i wanted in that university (i wanted to study IT, but ended up in Information System)
- at 6th semester i took another specialization for IT people (still pushing and followed my friend) which is networking, i took CISCO professional certification and failed
- graduated with C grade as my remark in my final project (skripsi) even my overall GPA was above 3.5 out of 4, but still for me it's a failure :(
- didn't get a job for about 7 months since i graduated, even i graduated three and a half years, earlier out of four years for normal period
- only held on for 3 months for my first job in IT
- successfully entered prestigious management trainee program in private local bank but once again failed to finish
- many more ... ^^
and now i'm in the beginning of pursuing my dream which my actual state is not as it seems as in my dream

it frustrates me so much... argghhh...
why all those happened to me?

at first i wanted to write these in full descriptive idea about that wrong past choices,
but after talked to someone about this,
i won't get drown too long in this situation.
i need to stand up and move on!
i found a quote that can strengthen and joyous me a bit maybe:
~ only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly ~

any insight or feedback or comments or inputs friends?
need that so much !

the Sun and the Moon

2010-03-02T00:53:00.000+07:00

Craving

2010-03-01T16:04:00.000+07:00

I'm gonna miss my food-hunting-time,

have to put-a-brake-on a while now!

New Me

2010-03-01T14:22:00.001+07:00

no... you won't see any photos of me with new looks or new haircuts ^^

it's just my personal commitment to change in this new year, because i think i haven't changed at all and it has already passed two months in this year, so should i consider the starting of my new year at this month?

Judgment Day

2010-03-01T14:16:00.001+07:00

Allow me to share what I got yesterday on Sunday Service ^^

Believers at Judgment Day

2 Corinthians 5:10-11 [niv]

¹⁰For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, that each one may receive what is due him for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad.

So it's a sure thing that one day we will arrive at that day, the judgment day, when God will judge each of us for what we've done on earth as we're living.

¹¹Since, then, we know what it is to fear the Lord, we try to persuade men. What we are is plain to God, and I hope it is also plain to your conscience.

And the first church knew that, so the urged and warned us to fear the Lord. (verse 11-16)

-- actually i've read this passage or verses a couple of times, but yesterday i was reminded, wow... living as a believer it's not just about receive Jesus as savior and got saved, but i have to live fearfully of Him, always acknowledge His presence, fear of God means here is obeying His Words and commands, i stunned when i realized that so many times i compromised with sin and like underestimate God's grace and mercy on the cross, but with this reminder, i want to commit myself to walk in His path --

another reasons why we have take it seriously about judgment day, becoz God will be a God who judge people fairly, and all our live tracks were written in His books

Hebrew 10:26-31 [niv]

³¹It is a dreadful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.

Yup this verse reminded me again, ouw yeah God is love, but when the judgment day come, He will be a God who will judge us straightly and firmly, if we thing He will be show kindness like we use to know, this verse remind us not to play God!

Why is it so fearful thing to fall into God's hands?

²⁸Anyone who rejected the law of Moses died without mercy on the testimony of two or three witnesses.

There will be no mercies on that day.

²⁹How much more severely do you think a man deserves to be punished who has trampled the Son of God under foot, who has treated as an unholy thing the blood of the covenant that sanctified him, and who has insulted the Spirit of grace?

I don't want to be this person who disgrace the sacrifices of Him for me.

²⁷but only a fearful expectation of judgment and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God.

I believe there is hell, have you read the latest books about 7 young Koreans were taken to hell tour by God?

more about hell in gospel Mark 9:42-48

What will be used to judge us?

Revelation 20:11-15

¹¹Then I saw a great white throne and him who was seated on it. Earth and sky fled from his presence, and there was no place for them. ¹²And I saw the dead, great and small, standing before the throne, and books were opened. Another book was opened, which is the book of life. The dead were judged according to what they had done as recorded in the books. ¹³The sea gave up the dead that were in it, and death and Hades gave up the dead that were in them, and each person was judged according to what he had done. ¹⁴Then death and Hades were thrown into the lake of fire. The lake of fire is the second death. ¹⁵If anyone's name was not found written in the book of life, he was thrown into the lake of fire.

So there will be the Book of Life where in it has to be written names all believers who stands till the end with their faith, and also another book, i might assume it will be written all our lives track records ^^

to be continued...

-- i don't mean to scare you all, but i believe this is the truth coz it's written in the bible, and for me myself, i just reminded to live more fearful of God and be a better person not in the sight of human only, but especially in His sight, do what He want me to do --

Legacy?

2010-02-22T13:01:00.001+07:00

Have you ever heard about this amazing boy Ethan Bortnick? I honestly just heard about him, yesterday when i was at Kingdom Business Community at Puncak, a camp for business man and professionals who want to do business and work in Kingdom's manner (i'll tell you another story about this later). One of the speaker, shared the topic titled "WARISAN" in english would be inheritance, but i'd prefer to use word legacy in my posting here. I won't discuss long about this topic, but let's just get directly to this young boy, i also amazed when i knew his profile, he's now just 10 years old, but he was starting to play piano at three years old. What has been amazed me was, he can play any music (especially classical) barely just with hear the songs once, and he can play exactly the same just like the maestro did. What astonished me more, he is not just playing piano or music, but with his playing he raised the funds for charities up to 20 million USD at that time, i don't know now.
What I wanna share is this, if this young boy, who is just a lad, can know how to do good for others, how about us? It's not need from what you don't have but just start with what you have. If this Ethan know how to leave a good legacy, how about us?

Matthew 15:34, 36-37 ~ "How many loaves do you have?" Jesus asked. Then He took the seven loaves and the fish, and when he had given thanks, he broke them and gave them to the disciples, and they in turn to the people. They ate all and were satisfied. Afterward the disciples picked up seven basket full of broken pieces that were left over.

I believe, when we surrender what we have to God, whether that are our body, skills, talents, creativity, time, knowledge, everything... We give thanks just like Jesus did, and give it to fulfill others first, talk about care for our neighbors, then the result we all satisfied and not just that, it will abundantly.

additional info:
you can check all charities that he's been made till now; one of it, he supported some american's heart foundation, because his siblings has a heart decease.last but not least, he also support Our Daily Bread Ministry, you know our daily bread, daily devotion for many believers that has been distributed all around the world and blessed so many people.

more about Ethan Bortnick:
here - nice interview and performing in one of American talk show
also here - official website

Strong

2010-02-22T11:51:00.000+07:00

Life Growth

2010-02-22T11:22:00.000+07:00

~ GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY. GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL.
We make a Living by what we get, We make a Life by what we give ~

Stalker?

2010-02-10T17:27:00.000+07:00

hahahaha... i just wanna share laughs ^^

Do I Really Live?

2010-02-10T16:53:00.000+07:00

Papa, help me to be this person who brings good impact to others, i don't need them to repay me back though, as long as Your name be glorified through me, it is enough!

Guide me Pa to live Yours ways in this getting-hard-temporary-life, i know i couldn't make it without You!

Everything is Under Control

2010-02-10T16:41:00.000+07:00

I believe I am at Your good hand

2nd Next...

2010-02-05T11:01:00.001+07:00

I must enhance my sight reading skill now!

thank you so much to D who has copied one of the materials for me ^^

please the sister send this greeting to her :p

Wondering?

2010-02-05T10:58:00.000+07:00

aren't they all cute and funny?

I wonder what would it like to be a father later

and what would my children be ^^

Leave

2010-02-05T10:55:00.000+07:00

I will leave the music just to spend time with you together!

Next...

2010-02-05T10:53:00.001+07:00

instrument that i wanna learn ^^

I Want to ...

2010-02-05T09:58:00.000+07:00

can someone please just stop the time...???

many times i feel i don't have enough time with twenty-four hours a day, it was just too hustling in everything...

i want to stop the time... ! or maybe make it sedated a little bit !

hahaha...

i know it's not possible... words in the picture are wrong :p

time is running fast!!!

I Will

2010-02-03T10:46:00.000+07:00

Psalms 60:12 ~ "With God's help I WILL do mighty things, for He will trample down my foes." [nlt]

yup...

no more regrets...

no more looking back...

no more too living in future...

but i will put my eyes on Him and living this present!

Lady Wisdom

2010-02-02T09:59:00.000+07:00

Proverbs 31:30 ~ "Charm can mislead and beauty soon fades. The woman to be admired and praised is the woman who lives in the Fear-of-God" [msg]

to all my fellow men, seek this Lady Wisdom of yours, for my fellow women be this one!

Love Music

2010-01-29T09:25:00.000+07:00

couldn't agree more with this!

Needed

2010-01-29T09:19:00.000+07:00

A message for me, fellows blogger and for those who spend more time in front off the computer screen rather than the outside world!

Go outside!!!

They need us to share God's love!

I wanna be...

2010-01-28T21:33:00.001+07:00

by your side even in the rain and tear drops!

A to Z

2010-01-27T16:54:00.000+07:00

Although things are not perfect

Because of trial or pain

Continue in thanksgiving

Do not begin to blame

Even when the times are hard

Fierce winds are bound to blow God is forever able

Hold on to that you know

Imagine life without His love

Joy would cease to be

Keep thanking Him for all the things

Love imparts to thee

Move out off "camp complaining"

No weapon that is known

On earth can yield the power

Praise can do alone

Quit looking at the future Redeem the time at hand

Start everyday with worship

To "thank" is a command

Until we see Him coming

Victorious in the sky

We'll run the race with gratitude

eXalting God most high

Yes, there will be good times and yes some will be bad, but...

Zion waits in glory ... where none are ever sad!

a poem from a friend ^^

You, Yourself and Me

2010-01-27T16:45:00.001+07:00

i saw you while you're sleeping

i was waiting till the morning awake

expecting first you're gonna looking for me

coz what? i missed you a lot

you told me everything you want to do that day

all your plans to every single step

i hoped you would asked my accompanion

so I could stay by your side always

but you didn't even care for me

you took it all with your own strength

my heart was broken to pieces

but my love was too deep for you

night has come, you're at home

feeling empty deep inside your heart

all your body knocked out to moveless

needed something to make you liven up

i waited on you to come to me

longing to hear your voice call unto me

whispering that you have the same feeling towards me

i believed my heart will jump out when hear that

the time has come, when you said "i'm in love"

you have found someone to be yours

could it be me? would you love me back?

i'm in love too, 'coz i am your truly lover, and i love you so much!

with love,

GOD

Pure?

2010-01-27T12:22:00.000+07:00

I've found reading the bible is more interesting now, I usually read my bible in two languages: Bahasa and English New King James version, but this morning, suddenly I wondered to read it in another english version, so I opened my e-bible at my phone and read The Message version, it's kinda more in daily words.

I am so glad 'coz it will enrich me with new grammar and vocabularies, yup... a powerful tool as a songwriter!

and here a verse that God revealed to me in another version, even I've already read this part so many time because I read this book chapter by chapter according to the date.

Proverbs 27:21 ~ "The purity of silver and gold is tested by putting them in the fire; the purity of human hearts is tested by giving them a little fame" [msg]

Sleeping -_-

2010-01-27T02:17:00.009+07:00

Have you ever experienced these?
Yeah... I have... and quite often ^^
Who's not love to sleep? especially one of my fellow blogger here :p
The questions are when and where we better should be sleeping?
The answer is whenever we feel sleepy right? :p

I just wanna share how it was so not good to do those actions above :)
coz I have experienced the result of those actions
The most unpleasant experience about fell asleep while on the phone was when at my birthday 2008, I was on the phone with my girlfriend a few hours before my birthday, it's around 10pm, so it was 2 hours left to my birthday, my girl spoke on the phone with me to keep me awake, becoz she knew I am kinda guy who fell asleep suddenly while on the phone, yup... she has experienced it a couple times before, but that day, I was very very tired, after I went almost the whole day and my best friend came over to my place and share things till night around 9pm. There we're still talking till around 11.50pm and she was driving her car back home from went out after working, after that she said she might close the phone because she wanted to go off the car and bring stuffs out of car, at that time I've already felt very sleepy and in between real talk and dreaming, finally I fell asleep without notice, and you know what... my girlfriend was off the car because she was arrived in front of my house and brought the birthday cake -.- I slept like a baby without any thoughts that she would come and gave me a surprise -_- she called me many times to my cellphone but I didn't hear at all, so the night passed... in the morning I woke up with 47 missed calls from her, "OH MY GOD JOS...! what happened? did I do wrong??" my thoughts said. I quickly called her in the morning and heard the voice of disappointment said, "Jo, I came to your house last night..." I was like, ".................................................................................." and my heart beat like, "_________________________________________" stop beating for a while, that morning on my birthday became the worst morning in my life ever, she told me that she threw the candle on the sewer in front of my house, and the cake she gave it to her best friend and told me to take that by myself.

The second most unpleasant experience about fell asleep is when I was driving a car, actually I've done this many time too, because of exhausting day and impact of car's air conditioner I felt sleepy all the time I was driving home alone after go to somewhere and after dropping my friends to their house. But story I want to share was the most unpleasant I think.
I was driving alone back home from my activities all day, it's around 12pm, I forgot from what activities, the journey is about 40 minutes to my house, in some street, I've felt so sleepy and made me saw hallucinations, sometimes like I saw people crossing the street, or cars stopping in front of me, so at that night I hit the break so many time and I liked running my car unstably, some I ran 40kmh sometime 80kmh, very very bad driving, sometime I wanted to hit the sidewalk, sometime I wanted to hit people, motorcycle, cars. Until I was already near my home around 10 minutes more, it's near bundaran Bank Indonesia, there were 2 traffic lights, I've already stopped far away from 1st traffic light even at my front was no other vehicles, made a policeman walked toward me thinking I was drunk or on drugs maybe, but I realized and forced myself to awake and stopped properly at the traffic light, at the 2nd traffic light I slept, suddenly I woke up and saw green light and I wanted to hit the gas pedal, fortunately I realized it was not green still red, but the green light was on the street across of me. After that, at the street beside Bank Indonesia, I met another traffic light, when I got nearer it became red and I hit the brake pedal, but becoz I've fell asleep so fast, I didn't hit the brake full enough to make my car stop, suddenly I heard a voice, and felt something bumped into my car, I awake and full stopped. Suddenly from below in front of my car, was standing up a man (seems he is a man who fix the roads) he was crossing the street at that crossroad and I hit him :( fortunately he is okay and not got angry with me, just a little grumble with me and he was with his friend 4 men, can you imagine if they got angry and beat me altogether or damaged my car. After that moment, my adrenaline was pumped up, I was fully awake and quickly drive to my house.

By these stories, I just want to remind you friends, please do the sleeping at the right time and place :)
and I want to say sorry to all for those who have ever experienced this with me, sorry!!! I am not meant to be rude but I just couldn't help to make my eyes still awake. ^^

It's Not

2010-01-25T12:49:00.000+07:00

It's just the BEGINNING

my first day back in my hometown...

(actually I wanted to post my last day at Surabaya but couldn't make it coz the time was so tight yesterday)

before that I want to share my two last days at my previous town...

January 23rd, 2010

last Saturday, I packed most of my stuffs like clothes, books, CDs, DVDs, and other small stuffs into 3 boxes, 1 big, 1 medium, 1 small and sent it by train expeditions, so my room was quite empty, left only several electronic stuffs and shirts to be brought by plane ^^

and here there was... my friends once again were taking care of me very much, at night, they have planned taking me out to dinner and karaoke. So we went to DUNIA STEAK @ Sriwijaya new steak place with quite cheap price, DAPUR COKLAT @ Biliton it's new at Surabaya and bigger than several stores at Jakarta, it was fun at dapur coklat, because it was the grand opening and we can tested free chocolates and cakes ^^ see my mobile upload. Final destination was karaoke NAV KARAOKE @ BONNET MANYAR
with my, exhausting fun and wet day finally finished, Surabaya was raining all night from the afternoon.

January 24th, 2010

last day on Surabaya, in the morning I visited my tante kost because she was sick and hospitalized. I went to the hospital Adi Husada @ Undaan Wetan and there she was... on bed not like sick people, but very fresh and fun as usual, we talked, she experienced stroke attack on last Tuesday midnight, but she experienced miracle too from God. After that I got back to kost and prepared to go to church, that day I registered to have medical checkup at church, so I went, and be the first person to be called :) haha... and my results was OKAY !!! It's all normal ! but I will re-check again at Jakarta and promised myself to take care my foods consumption at town after some crazy food hunting at Surabaya hohoho...

At sunday service at church, I experienced God's grace and mercy once again, the preach was about GIVING THANKS it's so me... not I am not grateful, but it just reminded me again to always giving thanks to Him even the situation is the contrary. At closing, they made me a farewell clip for me and blessed me with their blessings from the eldest and all the congregation there.

After church, like usual, we used to go to the mall (always refer to Galaxy Mall), but this time we didn't hang out at foodcourt like we used to be, but this time we were at Ranch Market ^^ ate some steaks and picked drinks directly from the stall, hohoho... and of course we paid for all that :p but the idea was cool enough ... tribute to Yenny Wibowo ^^

Ohhhhhhhhhh Noooooooo... my flight at 6.25 pm and 4 pm I was still at the mall :) so I got back to kost, packed a little bit... it started to heavy rain again... I arrived at airport 6 pm, but my stuffs actually my keyboard that has to be checked in to baggage, was not arrived, because it was with different car who pick some my friends first :( I checked in partially, on e-board my flight was already boarding, finally my keyboard arrived and I ran quickly with a short saying goodbye to my friends who went with me to the airport and there I was... be a 2nd or last man who board the plane ^^ when I walked the aisle of the plane to my seat at back, all passengers eyes were on me and I just smiled... at my mind just thinking: 'you don't know what I've been through...' how my friends have helped me so much.

BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG THANKS... !!!

to all my friends in Surabaya, especially KRISPEN FAMILY! thanks for those who walked me to the airport and who didn't, you guyz are awesome... it means a lot for me and it's a great honorcan be a part of amazing family like you! missed you already guys!

for my cellgroup frenz, remember my last message at my farewell okay? teach me to maintain us!

so... here I am at my home sweet home, home sweet town ... by leaving my previous town it's not the end, but it's just a beginning of another journey that God has prepared towards my dream!

It's Not That Heavy

2010-01-20T04:01:00.000+07:00

tons? kilos? pounds? ounces? grams?
no... it's not that heavy...

1 Yohanes 5:3 ~ "Sebab inilah kasih kepada Allah, yaitu, bahwa kita menuruti perintah-perintah-Nya. Perintah-perintahnya itu tidak berat"

1 John 5:3 ~ "For this is the love of God, that we keep His commandments. And His commandments are not burdensome" [nkjv]

I Realize I'm ...

2010-01-20T03:35:00.000+07:00

LOVED!

unconditionally...

even so many times I did break Your heart...

even so many times I made some mistakes...

even so many times I ran away from You...

2 Corinthians 5:21 ~ "For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him"

Silence or Talk?

2010-01-20T03:13:00.000+07:00

Is silence always gold? Is talk only silver?
I think spiteful words can hurt your feelings, but silence breaks your heart and do you know silence propagates itself, and the longer talk has been suspended, the more difficult it is to find anything to say
I can't say which one is right
Please you tell me ^^

I just found some hints like this:
Proverbs 10:19 ~ "When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise"
Proverbs 16:24 ~ "Pleasant words are like a honeycomb, sweetness to the soul and health to the bones"
Proverbs 24:26 ~ "He who gives a right answer kisses the lips"
Proverbs 25:11 ~ "A word fitly spoken is like apples of gold in settings of silver"

p.s.: sorry for not good pictures, i'm learning to use 'pohsotohp' please someone teach me... jak?

Fight For Love!

2010-01-20T00:54:00.000+07:00

IT IS NOT EASY DEALING WITH FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS

TRUE! IT'S NOT ALWAYS BEAUTIFUL AS IT SEEMS

TRUE! IT'S NOT ALWAYS PERFECT AS WE WANT TO

BUT

AS LONG AS WE BELIEVE IN OUR DEEPEST HEART

WE SHOULD FIGHT FOR LOVE!

Proverbs 30:18,19d ~ "There are three things which are too wonderful for me, Yes, four which I do not understand: ...

and the way of a man with a virgin"

What Do You Say About Me?

2010-01-18T14:20:00.005+07:00

Interesting post by bee and valen, so I was taking mine... from this site and these were the results, what do you say bout this? Any comments are welcome ^^

You Are Level-Headed and Trustworthy said by whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

yeah this is what the site tells,

but I believe for what my Father said:

"For I were made in His image." ~ Genesis 1:27
"I am fearfully and wonderfully made." ~ Psalm 139:14

Segments of Song

2010-01-16T04:04:00.003+07:00

I wanna share about song's parts, maybe some of you knew already but it's okay :)
so here it is... by the way... it's my version... I called it segments of song, some people or songwriter might say song's fragmentation, song's framework, suit yourself.

Segments of Song:
1.Intro
-> Just like you make your proposal either business or school or anything, or you wanna start a conversation, there is an introduction, so it's quite similar in song, there could be an intro.
-> What is an intro? If I may make a definition, it's a song's part that would greet listener for the first time and it's kinda quite important to make this song will continue to be heard or not (for me myself, sometime when I heard songs, if the intro was not 'buy' me or greet me in my ear and heart, I would just skip to the next track or next song ^^), mostly it's just an instrumental (means no vocals involved)
-> What it's like? the answer is wow... could be thousands style of intro, but the most important things, is the lick or in common language I'd prefer use terminology the sentence, it's about how it spells the melodies, chords, and beat. Some intro, might just a simple melody in a short sentence, but some intro might be in amazing melody with long sentence, the thing is an intro should greet or speak the listener, make us as listeners would listen further till the song begin and even till the end.

2.Verse
-> This is the part in the song that you start walking into the journey of a song, depends of what the song is about, usually this part will describe that topic either briefly or implicitly.
-> Music in here could be in many style too, depends on what kind of song is this, usually the dynamic level (soft or loud) in this part softer or lower than the chorus.

3.Pre-chorus
-> I don't know the official name/term for this part, but I call it pre-chorus. It's the part between verse and chorus. It's very very optional or tentative, many songs don't have this segment, it's okay. For me myself, when I write songs, usually have this segment included.
-> What is it like? Usually the atmosphere/ambiance in this part it's more 'up' than verse but not too 'up up' like chorus :) It's usually involved, some changes in beat from verse but would not the same with chorus, and the lyrics of course it's different from verse and usually bridging the meaning of verse into chorus. Most common prechorus may be only two sentences.

4.Chorus
-> This is the most common part in song and one of the most important segment in songs, because usually this part should be easy listening (means: easy to remember lyrics, or very interesting lyrics, nice melodies, perfect chords, match beat) everything has just to be appropriate in this part, how many of you just remember the chorus of songs? (raise your hand in your heart ^^)
-> Usually this part will be the climax of the song, of course from dynamics level will be 'up up' more than intro, verses, prechorus.

5.Bridge
-> This part also optional or tentative. It's a part that can be a bit out of context of songs, or even can make the message of the song stronger. Usually it's not too long, only involves 2 - 4 sentences.
-> Music in this part, can be dramatically changed, from chords, melodies, and even beat. But the most common, the bridge will support the essence of song!

6.Interlude/Modulation
-> This is the part where music will help the song to be more in climax and also make the song's dynamic level stretch up and more fluctuate. It's also optional or tentative. Usually it involves music only, make some progressions of chords, maybe change the beat a little beat out of the box, or make some extraordinary musical performances. But in the ethics of good easy listening song, interlude would support the song to be more climax up to the limit, and commonly will go back to prechorus (if the song had) or to chorus with more 'up up up' ambiance/atmosphere.

7.Ending
-> This is the last part of the song, but not the least. However, the song should be finished well and nicely. Some songs with great intro, verses, chorus but with bad ending, it's very disappointing and would be remember as a 'bad song'.
-> It's included coda an end/edge part of song that usually repeated for several times, or just an ending part which could be the same as intro, or can be another new arrangement of music, usually won't involves vocals.
Most common ending usually shorter than the intro.

Song Example:

Hanya Di Dalam Namanya

Verse:

FIRMAN TERANGI JALANKU
P’RISAI IMAN DI S’TIAP WAKTU
LINDUNGIKU DARI S’GALA

Prechorus:
‘TAK PERNAH KU RAGU
KAR’NA DIA BERSAMAKU
SETIA MENJAGA
DENGAN KUASA MULIA

Chorus:
HANYA DI DALAM NAMA-NYA
YESUS DIA SUMBER PENGHARAPAN
DI S’PANJANG HIDUPKU
HANYA DI DALAM KUASA-NYA
PASTI TERSEDIA KEMENANGAN
BAGIKU S’LAMA-LAMANYA

Verse2:
KEBENARAN YANG BEBASKAN
S’LALU B’RIKANKU KEKUATAN
HADAPI S’GALA TANTANGAN

Interlude: music only (around 8 bars)

Bridge/Ending:
DALAM NAMA-NYA
ADA PENGHARAPAN
DALAM KUASA-NYA KEM’NANGAN

Taken from: True Worshiper God is Our Victory Album @ 2009
Music by Steve Tabalujan, Lyrics by Andre Hermanto, Arranged by Steve Tabalujan
lyrics and video can be seen at [here]

Am I Dreaming?

2010-01-16T02:57:00.000+07:00

No...

I am living my dream....

"To accomplish great things, we must dream as well as act." ~ Anatole France

Lil' Journey

2010-01-14T10:36:00.006+07:00

Wednesday, January 13th 2010

...

11.20 - 11.30 Take a bath

11.30 - 12.00 Journey to LightCraft Production House
12.00 - 13.00 Workshop Tour @ LightCraft Production House
13.00 - 13.10 On road to Bebek H.Qomar
13.10 - 13.40 Eat at Bebek H.Qomar Jln Lontar:
   1 bebek sayap, 1 ayam dada, 2 nasi, 1 es teh ^^
13.40 - 16.30 West Surabaya Tour:
                       - Palimanan Golf Field @ CitraLand
                       - Amphitheater @ Pakuwon
                       - Vihara Matreya
16.30 - 17.00 On road back Home
...
more photos look [here]

that were some snapshots of my schedule rundown yesterday and one of the photos!
haha... yeah... still it's a lil journey though, coz it's only take a couple of hours, but what I wanna share here... that... I am happy have friends who care so much about me, I don't know whether because I will go back to Jakarta for good or other reason... no matters the reason... I am abundantly blessed by what they've done for me...
Great journey guys !
thanks so much to Guntoro Rusli and Yenny Wibowo for their kindness to accompany me mlaku-mlaku at West Surabaya, thanks also to Siendy Kurniawan my kost buddy ^^ for being walking and eating buddy!

have you done something good or maybe just a little and simple deeds for others and for the least people like Jesus said? you would have done that for Jesus my friend... or at least it would be pleased others just like I've experienced yesterday :)

Love is ...

2010-01-12T09:28:00.003+07:00

Love is patient,

love is kind,

it does not envy,

it does not boast,

it is not proud,

it is not rude,

it is not self-seeking,

it is not easily angered,

it keeps no record of wrongs,

love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth,

it always protects,

always trusts,

always hopes,

always perseveres,

love never fails...

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 (NIV)

I am in a Love Campaign, a simple insight that I want to learn practice those verses about love, day by day. It's gonna take 14 days. The thing is simple, I just keep praying and kept in mind about one verse of love in one full day. I believe when we do things daily it will help us to love God and surrounding more.

Who is gonna join me? Let us learn about love coz GOD is love :)

I've Found Favor

2010-01-11T16:21:00.000+07:00

There were times when I think I was at my lowest part in life, in the situation that I didn't want to be God's children anymore, I was sick of all 'religious and holy' things. The options for me were only being black or white, there's no gray area, there's no standing in the middle, or standing on two boats. I was so helpless, didn't know what to do, felt so disgraceful, ungrateful, confound, downcast, and awful. All the emotions and feelings were mixed up together until I was in the state of couldn't feel anything for a while.

That moment I was like trampled on the ground, cast away and no one there could help me or even realized what had happened to me at that time. I played music, I ministered, even I was still in the line of leadership and lead 70 people under me, but who was know what happened inside me. At that moment, I searched something to fulfill my life from many non God (good) things even I've already known what to do.

I didn't know how long exactly I was in this desert storm state like this. I might be tried to live like not knowing Him, running away from Him, from good community, done whatever I want, very indulging myself in sin, until I realized that I just couldn't live without Him, my life was empty.

Then once again He embraced me with His love when I was sitting at one of the services at my church the day I didn't ministry, I just caught up in His love when the preacher is one of my friend, shared the similar things like me she experienced in her life. At that moment, I just drowned in His love and weeping continuously like a child, tears was coming down and I said to Father: "Pa, sorry for being so selfish, please forgive me, I wanna come back to You" and gentle voice whisper within my heart said "Son... You've found my favor, I'm glad you come back". From that day on, it's just like my turning point from my degradation in my relationship with Him, and I was back in spirit to walk my day forward. Several days after that, I wrote song like this, here is the chorus, later I'll share the full version titled In You:

In You,

You restore me from my fall

and lifted me high

In You,

I've found my strength and my strong

draw me near to Your heart

so... I've found favor of Him and promised myself not to receive God's grace in vain. For Him who seek to the deepest a heart of man, I dedicate my life.

2 Corinthians 6:2 ~ " ... In the time of my favor I heard you and in the day of salvation I helped you ... I tell you, now is the time of God's favor, now is the day of salvation"

My Tribute

2010-01-11T15:09:00.001+07:00

How can I say thanks

For the things you have done for me

Things so undeserved

Yet You gave to prove your love for me

The voices of a million angels

Could not express my gratitude

All that I am and ever hope to be

I owe it all to thee

To God be the glory, to God be the glory

To God be the glory,

For the things He has done

With His blood He has saved me

With His power He has raised me

To God be the glory,

For the things He has done

Just let me live my life

And let it be pleasing Lord to thee

And should I gain any praise

Let it go to Calvary

With His blood He has saved me

With His power He has raised me

To God be the glory

For the things He has done

To God be the glory, to God be the glory

To God be the glory,

For the things He has done

With His blood He has saved me

With His power He has raised me

To God be the glory,

For the things He has done

p.s: I'm working on re-arranging this song for my best friend's wedding at March 6th 2010, and when I repeat this song many times, I was so overwhelmed by His love, through this song's lyrics it's so me...

I Don't Have Friends

2010-01-09T01:38:00.000+07:00

Last night when I chat with some friends on instant messaging, I remembered something and here's what was on my mind:

Sometime in my life when it talked about friendship I was feeling alone, even I do have a lot of friends (from quantities I think... you can check my Friendster's two accounts, Facebook and my buddies on MSN, YM, skype, myspace etc) but the thing is they seem not exist for me and I for them. I don't know who's or what's wrong, but this situation is definitely not comfortable for me. Many times, I felt I don't have someone to talk to, to share with, or to cry on (haha... me still human with a heart right?) or in the other hands my friends didn't tell me anything about their lives even I asked so it's like no friendship between us.

With time goes by, of course I continue my life till this very second, but last night I realized something when I chat with some of my friends, the one is my friend here, one is my friend from cell-group at Jakarta and one is my friend from the same ministry in Jakarta... all women ^^ they shared what they've been doing lately, what they've been through, their conditions, family and many things ... suddenly I realized that... wow... they were sharing share quite deep things to me when I was usually thought their share should be in surfaces only, usually I was the one who shared quite deep coz I was okay for being open. But last night once again make me realized, my friends need someone to share or talk with or maybe just to hear them and so do I...

so...

Don't ever feel you are strong by yourself and don't need other, don't ever you think it's okay to keep it by yourself all the questions in mind or hesitations in life, besides God, we should share to someone, someone we could trust, could be parents or friends or partners or colleagues.
Don't ever underestimate yourself or self-pity too, coz you would never know when your thoughts, your advices, your comments, your smile, your opinions, even your silence could be some refreshments and insights for your friends.
let this year I will try to be a better friend for all of my friends ^^

I don't have friends? I do have friends...!

I Thought I Understand

2010-01-06T13:50:00.000+07:00

in fact...
i don't know women at all...

sometime i became not too sensitive about other feelings...
sometime i ignored my conscience to the problems that's happening...
sometime i felt i was the one who has sacrificed myself...
sometime i thought i was the one who has fight for many things...

i was thinking... it's okay if i be silent...
but that's not gonna solve the things...
in the matters of fact, i also don't like to be ignorant...
i don't like something's not right and left it open...

why people sometime became so stupid
when it comes about feelings

hopefully i still have a chance to make things right
will not waiting others to change...
but i will do the change...
give me another chance?

Start!

2010-01-06T12:29:00.002+07:00

I start walking ...

in the new year

with new hope

with new spirit

with new goals

the adventures begin

the journeys started

and i know He'll lead me through it all!

this kinda post will always continue along with my life journey i hope...

Am I Music?

2010-01-05T22:13:00.004+07:00

scale... keys... chords... melody... beat and rhythm... are those music? pop, rock, funk, jazz, blues, latin, dance, techno, acoustic, country, oriental, ballad, folk... are these music? piano... guitar... bass... drum... violin... saxophone... harp... glockenspiel... sitar... accordion... are those music? solo, duo, trio, quartet, quintet, band, big band, orchestra... are these music?

for i myself it speaks differently

it is me when i was blue

it is me when i was sunny

it is me when i was empty

it is me when i was full

sometime gloomy and downhearted

sometime delighted and blissfull

sometime blur and misty

sometime complicated and harsh

as for me... music is so abstract... i don't even can make a clear definition of it... right now... what i know is about pouring out my mind, soul, heart and body... is about listening to your heart... is about your conscience... is come from the Maestro... is the relationship... is feeling... is the expression of love... is everywhere...

... am I music? you tell me ...

It's Raining Outside

2010-01-05T17:11:00.002+07:00

i was driving my motorcycle up to the speed

seeing the clouds above have already blackened

voice of thunders lingered between the air

i went directly home

parked the motorcycle

closed my the door

suddenly it started to rain outside

i smiled in my heart

'coz my request once again been answered

i turned on the itunes

it's playing christmas songs by israel houghton

usually raining identical with gloomy and mellow feelings

but now

i am happy and joyous

more than last christmas i had

the christmas songs that are playing at my laptop

became so live

like it talks about the christmas itself

i know it's already new year

but i'm feeling christmas inside now

i was thinking what's make me this way

i smiled again in my heart

it was her

i got her call this morning

eventhough we haven't talked much

me within was smiling

seeing a glimpse of hope enlighten

the rain outside

just make the feeling reveal more

My Heart Your Home

2010-01-04T11:46:00.001+07:00

Come and make my heart Your home
Come and be everything I am and all I know
Search me through and through
'till my heart becomes a home for You

A home for You oh
Home for You oh
Let everything I do open up a door
For You to come through
and then my heart would be
A place where You wanna be

You are my portion, filling up everything
You are the fortune that's causing my heart to sing
That is amazing, that You could make Yourself at home with me

'Till my heart becomes a home for You
'Till my heart becomes a home for You

suddenly i sang that song in my quiet time today...
let this song be my prayer to You...

O... Nine to O... Ten

2010-01-04T06:46:00.002+07:00

Wow... it's new year... !!! Happy New Year to you all... !
Let us welcome 2010 with joyous heart and walk in it wisely !
In this opportunity, allow me to share a bit of my last year resolutions with some evaluations. I'm looking back to my goal setting at 2009, it started with words and promises of God for me to walk through the year:

Josh 1:9 ~ about be strong and take courage, God is with me
1 Corinth 2:9 ~ about what my eye's never seen, nor ear heard, God prepared all things for me
2 Corinth 12:9 ~ about in my weaknesses His strength is made perfect

I thanked Him for those marvelous living words that He's given me, I coped and managed to walk the year 2009 until it finished. Now let us go deeper to some of my points at my goal setting.

1. Spiritual Journey
Yups... it's about my personal relationship with Him, that came first, from some points like:

the time of quiet time - 50%
content of quiet time - 80%
reading and contemplate the Words - 75%
read bible at night - 10%
fasting and praying - 50%
remember Words - 50%
read spiritual books or cassettes - 50%

(those percentage a rough figure about how far I accomplished that point in the last year)
I commit myself to 'maintain' this relationship so much, coz I know I can't live without Him, but overall I only managed 52% averagely

2. Works
haha... there was a big change in this section, out of my goal setting, but I think it's in His goal setting for me :)
never doubt about it... coz He blessed me even more after it shifted to other job ^^... in the short words from bankers to musician, how was that sound? extreme maneuver? yeah it was !

3. Family
so far okay...

4. Relationship
there was a bit of shaking and shocking things happened last year but still coped with it...
points like:

keep a good communication - 75%
doa sepakat for our next plan and else - 5%

so quite not good enough in spiritual things, so it doesn't seem weird if there were some shaking and shocking things happened. You know... the bible said, all will be shaken, to left the unshaken ^^

5.Ministry
In short words, God has brought me to a new level of ministry, new perspective, new dimensions, never imagine quite detail, when I had to teach and training about praise and worship to churches.

6.Self Improvement
hahaha... this one is funny...
a.Body
- do exercise - 25%
b.Skill
- Music - 50% yeah I take jazz course again here ^^
- Cooking - wakakkaa... 50% since I moved to my new Kost here, I didn't cook anymore :(
- Economy - it's when I still a banker, but now more update to music - 25%
- Leadership and interpersonal - 50%
c.Character and Attitude:
this one is funny too... maybe it helped a bit by went out to this adventurous journey to other town, live by myself alone so I said - 75%

7.Finance
- Saving 40% of income - 50%
- Perpuluhan - 100%
- Persembahan Khusus - 75%
- Give to my Mom - 50%
- Diversification - 50%

ehm that's all folks... I merely think it was not too good about accomplishing my goal setting 2009, but it's new year, but I've learned a lot from last year, and I knew what have to be done and repair in this year. It's time to start a new fresh beginning, and from what I've heard the gospel that's been preached last sunday, if you missed a few or some time and points at last year, I should make it happen this year, by going extra mile, work extra, do extra, with excellence spirit !

In this beginning of 2010 allow me to say:

Thank You Lord for the New Year! I know it's another chance for me to be a better person like You want me to be, please guide and lead me through this year, so Your name be glorified in my life, and for whatever that had happened in the past I believe, You've taught me many things, and now it's the time to boost up the pace, accelerate the engine, keep my head up, focusing my eyes on You to fulfill Your perfect will upon my life, 'coz I know Your coming is getting closer ^^

i half heart

2009-12-30T11:54:00.004+07:00

like feeling despair

a bit of sad mixed up with muddle

mystify my mind and heart

to hazy clouds above

fatigue to be in a state of vague

like walking nowhere

wanna cease this and move on

figuring out what the One's want

tangled and sophisticated
droll and zany
the way of a man and a woman

when it's in dearth of talks

yupz

those are the feelings

when you see to the inner of

a half-heart person
but

thanks to Him who always complete the other half
and reverse all those feelings

do you believe this?

2009-12-30T11:05:00.001+07:00

maybe you guys have already seen these, 'coz i've got this amazing pics at my email long time ago... but i wanna share these... i've posted only 2 among 17 other great pictures that i've got... it's really amazing pictures... do you believe this was only a drawing on the street? it's a 3D drawing on 2D media ^^ it's unbelievable you know... there are so many 'crazy' talented artist out there... awesome ! i'm amazed by Him who's created all of us!

counting days

2009-12-28T12:56:00.000+07:00

Wow... it is true statement that said... time is running fast !!! yupz... without I realized it's already in the edge of the year 2009, now I'm counting days to year to come... it's only 3 more days left approx... I'm trying to recall what I've been through in this year from the very beginning, the day I left my hometown and start the adventurous journey to another town here at Surabaya till now, I've been taken care so much by Him... it's time of self-mirroring haha... I meant, to reflect and evaluates, and prepare for the next year resolutions and goal settings... have you done this my friend? please give yourself a time to do this... let us reflect and move forward to be a better person in the year-to-come !!!

Psalms 90:12 ~ "Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom" [niv]

listen

2009-12-28T12:17:00.000+07:00

to your heart...

many times I don't want to listen to my own heart's voices

but now, I wanna try to listen again what it says

coz it's one of the way, He speaks to me too

to hear even when it whispers, then I have to be silent

Isaiah 30:15b ~ " ... in quietness and trust is your strength ... " [niv]

i choose to

2009-12-27T12:47:00.002+07:00

maybe in our life there are some reasons to be sad,

but there are more reasons too to smile :)

you'll never know your smile might be brighten others day ^^

Proverbs 17:22 ~ A merry heart does good, like medicine, but a broken spirit dries the bones [nkjv]

that or that ?

2009-12-26T10:33:00.007+07:00

not a very hard matter to decide ^^

this saturday night i will spend my night practicing music for teen's christmas celebration tomorrow, passing the invitation of watching movies with my cellgroup friends...

in the meanwhile, i'm counting days till my going back home to the hometown, the megapolitan city, yet a part of me still like being here in this town, yet a part of me confuse what to do after this, yet i am a bit of worried i will be 'stranger' in my own community back there, yet a part of me just wanna go to someplace that in the edge of the earth and vanish, but i'll try to achieve finishing well here the adventures of mine and will go back to my town with a head-up, ready to face new challenges that He'd prepared for me, another journey will begin... ! soon... !

p.s: i wish i have that music group at the pic, violin, contrabass, cool ^^ ehm... but one day i will ^^

a honeymoon place wannabe

2009-12-25T15:45:00.000+07:00

one day, i wanna go to this place...

hopefully still there at the day that i will go

from jc to JC

2009-12-25T15:08:00.003+07:00

gift for You a whole heart of mine... [hopefully]

happy bday JC

it's a wonderful gift to have You in my life

...

= merry christmas to you all too my friends =

what a lunch

2009-12-24T15:01:00.002+07:00

kuenyangg... puooolll....

setelah menghabiskan 1 nasi kebuli dan 5 tusuk sate sumsum + 1 nasi putih, trus 2 es teh...

what a lunch... hihihihi...

mau kasih comment ttg tempat yg baru saja aku pergi mkn...

bingung mau makan di siang hari apa... habis jg temen kuliner ku pulang kampung... trus browsing2 alhasil nemu website surabayafood.com, pas lagi mau search makan apa, di pulldown menunya ada arabian foods, jadi deh search itu...

tiba2 muncul bbrp pilihan, rumah makan madinah di genteng kali, lalu ada depot ampel...

emang tiba2 ngidam makanan middle-east, udah lama jg soale gak makan beginian semenjak di surabaya...

jadi... makan dhe ke ampel... di jln walikota mustajab no. 33b (tuh lengkapnya...) peta? haha liat gps aja sana...

terus pesen d makanan diatas, tanpa tau harga nya... (habis di menu gak ada) dan aku bukan tipikal orang yg itung2an klo soal makan...

itu yg sate sumsum itungannya sih nambah... karena dah selesai makan nasi kebuli nya ternyata masih lom kenyang... jadi pesen lagi d setengah porsi sate... penasaran... tampaknya menarik... (liat gambar2nya)

recommendations:

nasi kebuli --> standard lha, terbantu karena ada daging kambing nya yg cukup berasa dan empuk;

sate sumsum --> dengan bumbu kacang dan kecap, disertai irisan bawang merah... enak... sumsum kan empuk2 gmn gitu lho...

aku sih suka...

tapi pas bayar dikit gak enak :p total smua itu Rp 44.000 harga yang lumayan untuk makan siang sendirian... ^^

we'll never know till we try right?

*p.s: oh iya lupa... baru inget pas nulis ini... mestinya ada difoto2 dlu, next recommendation d

make friend to myself

2009-12-24T02:31:00.000+07:00

make friend to yourself first before others

James 3:17 ~ "but the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere"

highway after off-road

2009-12-23T13:40:00.002+07:00

there's always some good after some bad happened

Jer 29:11 ~ For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope

day vs night

2009-12-23T13:16:00.004+07:00

Day

Night

don't be like this friends
Proverbs 23:2-3 ~ "And put a knife to your throat, if you are a man given to appetite. Do not desire his delicacies, for they are deceptive food."

copyright or copycat ?

2009-12-23T12:59:00.002+07:00

these can be two things, we're Indonesians just too creative or on the other side ^^

twelve shio ice creams

2009-12-23T11:48:00.002+07:00

i don't remember all shio, even more, i don't understand about it, but these ones are cute, hoho... wanna try to eat it... slurp slurp ... ^^

utter your feeling

2009-12-23T02:12:00.002+07:00

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl...

"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.
"I can't"
"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me.
"No... I am going to meet a friend..."
He was always like that.

He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word 'love' only came out from my mouth.

Since I knew him, I had never heard him say 'I love you' before.
To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all.

He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days...200days...
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why...

Then one day...

Me: Um, Jin, I ...
Jin: What...don't drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ......you....um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one.
There were many...

Then one day came, my 17th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But... lunch passed, dinner passed... and soon the sky was dark... he still didn't call...............

It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Jin...
Jin: Here...take this...
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What's this?
Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now.
I'm going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?

I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.

Then I shouted...
"Wait..."
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me...
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me .....

I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.

"I don't want to say...that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else." That was what he said. Then he ran off.

My legs felt numb...and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily...
How could he....
I felt that...
Maybe he is not the right guy for me...

After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying.
He didn't call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house.
That's how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday

After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that... I saw him on a street...with another girl... He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll... I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell...

Why did he gave these to me...
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls...
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that... it's going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual...
Me: I don't need it.
Jin: What....why...
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.

"I'm sorry". He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...

Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.

Then...
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.

"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted...
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
"Jin, move!"

HONK~!!
"Boom!" That sound, so terrifying.
That's how he went away from me.
That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.

After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him...
And after spending two months like a crazy person...
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days...
when we were in love...
"One...two... three..."

That was how... I started to count the dolls...

"Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..."

It all ended with 485 dolls.

I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.

I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...

"I love you~, I love you~"

I dropped the dolls,shocked.

"I....lo..ve...you??"

I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.

"I love you~ I love you~"

It can't be!

I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.

"I love you~"

"I love you~"

"I love you~"

Those words came out non-stop.

I...love you...

Why didn't I realize that..................

That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.

Why didn't I realize that he love me this much ... I am very sorry ........

I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.

It had his blood stain on it.

The voice came out, the one that I was missing so much...

"Jo...Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you.... Um... since I was too shy... If you
forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you .... everyday . ... till I die... Jo... I love you ...."

The tears came flowing out of me............... Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now?

He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute ....

For that... and for that reason... to me... it became courage... to live a beautiful life ....

Tomorrow is another day ..... the day of struggle for a better life ..........

my thought is this... try to utter out your feelings, but doesn't get over too sensitive when you get or do not get what you expect ^^

when you are down to nothing, God is up to something

2009-12-23T02:05:00.001+07:00

She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?"

The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?"

The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair ?" the nurse asked.

Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could."

Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said :

"Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say "I Love You" . I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD ! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom ? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him ?' "God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool ? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery ! How about that ?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

BHAM

2009-12-23T01:55:00.000+07:00

Bangkitlah Hai Anak Muda (BHAM)

Bait1:
Bangkitlah hai anak Muda
Bangkit bagi generasimu
Majulah hai orang muda
Maju dan bersiaplah berperang
* Kenakan segenap senjata Allah
Kuatkan dengan kuasa FirmanNya

Reff:
S’bab kita adalah anak-anakNya
Yang ditentukan-Nya dari semula
‘Tuk jadi laskar-laskarNya Allah

S’bab kita adalah pemenang
Bahkan lebih dari pemenang
‘Tuk jadi saksi bagi Nama-Nya

Bangkitlah hai anak muda

Bait2:
Kamulah hai anak muda
Yang berdiri menjadi teladan
Kamulah hai orang muda
Yang menjaga kekudusan hidup
* Kuatkan dan teguhkan hatimu
Melangkah dengan dasar iman

music and lyric by josuachrisnan © [des] 2005 - originally written for YCC (Youth Champion Camp) 2006
recorded and performed by Newsong in album Raja Di Hidupku @ 2008 www.myspace.com/a2gnewsong
arranged by josuachrisnan

too much is not good

2009-12-23T01:38:00.000+07:00

great day for today...
i almost closed my day at Dec 22nd with something good, coz i've been treated by my friend Oz as a thankyou for helping in his wedding day...
so we went for dinner at L**AR - Manyar Kertoarjo, with the resto's specialty kepiting telor asin (KTA).
like usual, if it's about foods, haha... i was so exciting... but still remember what Proverbs said, if your appetite drive you crazy so much put a knife on your neck - in the other words, i still behave of course... i let the host to choose the order even they ask me what to choose...
shortly...
we ate...
you could see some items i ate before at my last ate ... section in this blog
i really enjoyed the food, coz since i've been at Surabaya, i've never eat seafood as good as this one, the taste quite similar with seafoods i usually eat at Jakarta [finally... -.-] coz two times i ate seafood here, were very disappointing, not my taste not my style of eating seafood
at the end of this dinner, still left some of KTA and one of my friend, just poured it down into my plate, yeah... i was still eating few foods on my plate, because i have principals, to finish up foods upon my plate, so i ate that KTA the gembos style one...
and you know what.... i ended up with 'mblenek' coz i don't really like telor asin, maybe if it's just a few it would be okay, but it was too much and was not good -.-
after that...
some friends still saying wanted to go to have dessert outside this resto, i've lost my appetite of dessert thou...
but we still went to a place where there were mie UP, ronde angsle, es kacang hijau, es sarang burung, so i was looking for a dessert to wash up my mblenek feeling of KTA :( haha... finally i decided to have es sarang burung with lychee... ehm.... it helped for a couple of minutes, fortunately i went home directly after that... my stomach was gak karuan rasae :)
and... finally... i could release all that when i got home... fiuhhh... ^_^

too much is not good -.-

Hanya Dekat-Mu

2009-12-23T01:18:00.000+07:00

Verse:

Hanya dekat, Engkau saja, aku tenang
dari pada-Mu lah kes'lamatan ku
Hanya Engkau, gunung batuku dan kekuatanku
kota bentengku, aku takkan goyah

Chorus:

Pada-Mu lah ada pengharapan dan kepastian
Di dalam-Mu kota perlindunganku
Kupercaya kepada-Mu, setiap waktu
Curahkan isi hatiku dihadapan-Mu

music and lyrics by josuachrisnan © [okt] 2009

Together

2009-12-22T16:00:00.000+07:00

Verse:

Saat kita berkumpul bersama
canda tawa mewarnai hati
berbagi stiap suka dan duka
melayani di dalam satu kasih

Pre Chorus:

kita keluarga satu dalam Dia
yang beri harapan dan sukacita
melihat hidupmu di dalam Dia
menginspirasi kita semua

Chorus:

Together...
we're gonna share this moment forever
Together...
we want you live happily ever after
Together...
we wish you a blessed life hereafter
Together...
we'll be friends forever

Bridge:

Sgala pengorbanan dan air mata
takkan sia-sia,
s'bab Dia yang menakarnya,
'tuk jadikan indah

music and lyrics by josuachrisnan © [nov] 2009

What We Believe

2009-12-22T15:46:00.000+07:00

WE BELIEVE…the entire Bible is inspired by God, without error and the authority on which we base our faith, conduct and doctrine.

WE BELIEVE…in one God who exists in three distinct persons: Father, Son and Holy Spirit. We believe Jesus Christ is the Son of God who came to this earth as Savior of the world.

WE BELIEVE…Jesus died on the cross and shed His blood for our sins. We believe that salvation is found by placing our faith in what Jesus did for us on the cross. We believe Jesus rose from the dead and is coming again.

WE BELIEVE…water baptism is a symbol of the cleansing power of the blood of Christ and a testimony to our faith in the Lord Jesus Christ.

WE BELIEVE…in the regular taking of Communion as an act of remembering what the Lord Jesus did for us on the cross.

WE BELIEVE…every believer should be in a growing relationship with Jesus by obeying God’s Word, yielding to the Holy Spirit and by being conformed to the image of Christ. WE BELIEVE…as children of God, we are overcomers and more than conquerors and God intends for each of us to experience the abundant life He has in store for us.

Foods Temptations

2009-12-22T15:40:00.000+07:00

ehm... coz i love to eats (who doesn't??) but somehow and somewhere... I really like to go for what I called food hunting... so here are some lists of place for looking of foods... but once again in Jakarta...
maybe it will help for my friends from Surabaya or other cities if you want try some foods at Jakarta, it's already categorized by types of foods...
and maybe... some friends in Surabaya can provide me with this kind of information? ^^v wakakaka...

A. BUBUR AYAM
Bubur Ayam Cikini, depan KFC (malam)
Bubur Ayam Hotel Indonesia (malam)
Bubur Ayam Jl. Tanjung, Menteng
Bubur Ayam Cideng, Ps. Cideng Tanah Abang (malam)
Bubur Ayam Sukabumi, Tebet
Bubur Ayam Senayan: yang enak yang di depan Istora, mobil Ijo (Minggu pagi)
Bubur Ayam Sukabumi, Jl. Radio Dalam, pas tikungan
Bubur Ayam depan RS Pondok Indah (pagi)
§ Bubur Ayam Sawangan, depan Polsek Sawangan, Cinere (pagi)
* Bubur Ayam Barito , depan makam jl. Barito

B. NASI GORENG
§ Nasi Goreng Kambing Kebon Sirih (malam)
§ Nasi Goreng Jl. Lembang, Menteng: jangan salah pilih cari yang rame dikunjungi orang
§ Nasi Goreng Jl. Lombok, Menteng
§ Nasi Goreng Sosis, seberang Lippo Menteng depan ex Nanaban Tei
§ Nasi Goreng Sea Food Cikini, dekat KFC
§ Nasi Goreng Kambing Bakti, dekat Senopati, masuk dari Pom Bensin Senopati
§ Nasi Goreng Pekalongan, Jl. Fatmawati, Pondok Labu, depannya ex. Circle K
§ Nasi Goreng Jl. Daksa: tau deh sekarang masih buka apa ngga...?

C. NASI UDUK / WARTEG
§ Nasi Uduk Mas Miskun, Jl. Kramat Raya, dekat Hotel Acacia
§ Nasi Uduk Gondangdia, di bawahnya Fly Over Kereta Jl. Gondangdia Lama
§ Nasi Uduk Babe Saman, Jl. Kebon Kacang II, kalau nggak salah
§ Nasi Uduk Rawa Mangun, dekat Terminal Rawamangun
§ Nasi Uduk Spesial Jl. Kali Malang, deket terminal, dekat perempatan Jati Bening
§ Warteg Warmo, Tebet: setiap orang pasti tahu
§ Nasi Uduk Dikun, depan Komp. Pertanian, Ps. Minggu
§ Warteg Setia, Jl. Fatmawati, depan Ps. Mede: tempat makan selebriti

D. BAKMI / BAKSO / YAMIN
Bakmi Udin, Jl. Besuki, deket SD Besuki, Menteng
Bakso / Mie Bakso Jl. Tanjung
Mie Ayam Gang Kelinci: katanya sih yang enak di Gang Kelinci Ps. Baru
Bakmi Ps. Cikini
Bakso Komplek IKJ, deket Bioskop 21: tongkrongannya anak-anak IKJ
Bakso / Siomay LIA Pramuka
Bakso Matraman, di Jl. Matraman Raya, sebelahnya SD Marsudirini: Es Durennya ennak tennan....
Mie deket gereja, depan PARKIT, Sabang
Bakmi Tropik, Ambassador Mall, Jl. Casablanca
Mie Lomie, Karet: hati-hati ada babi-nya
Baso Lapangan Tembak, Senayan
Mie Ayam Buncit, di Jl. Warung Buncit
Mie Engkoh, depan Komp. Pertanian Ps. Minggu
Bakso Titoti, dari Pancoran kira2 400m dari Goro sebelah kiri jalan
Bakmi Boy, Ps. Mayestik, Jl. Cikajang
Bakso Bola Tenis, dekat Lapangan Blok S (malam)
Bakso/Siomay Blok S, depannya RS Kebayoran: eh..Es Podengnya enak juga
Bakmi Pangsit depan RSB Asih, Melawai (BARU)
Bakmi Permata, Permata Hijau, dekat Tops Supermarket
Cwie Mie Malang (HCM) di Arteri Simatupang, KTS & Arteri Pondok Indah (depan Pom Bensin)
Baso Tirta Marta Pondok Indah, depannya Sekolah Tirta Marta: Mie Ayam dpn gardu juga enak
Mie Yamin Tri-M Pondok Indah, pdi pertokoan dekat Ora et Labora PI
Bakmi Villa, belakang Villa Cinere Mas, Jl. Karang Tengah, Cinere

E. AYAM GORENG / BAKAR
Ayam Goreng Pemuda, Jl. Surabaya, Menteng; Casblanca
Ayam Bakar Menteng, seberang Menteng Plaza
Pecel Ayam Bu Bambang, Ps. Benhil
Ayam Bakar Jl. Denpasar, Kuningan, dari Casablanca sebelah kanan jalan (BARU)
Ayam Berkah, Blok M belakangnya SMP 56: yang enak yang tenda kuning, sambelnya mantap...
Ayam Taliwang, Tebet; Jl Wolter Monginsidi; Jl. P. Polim samping Apotik Jaya
Ayam Bakar SoGO (Somay Gope'), dari arah Halim – Bekasi, sebelum Hero Kalimalang, kiri
Ayam Bakar Gantari, sebelah Blok M plaza adannya di pinggir jalan. Ngantrii boo kalo pas jam makan.
Ayam Bakar di Bioskop Metrropol, deket RSCM, sambelnya enak.

F. SEA FOOD
Sea Food Rawamangun, deket Ps. Rawamangun
Sea Food 99, Kp. Melayu, dekat RS Mitra Keluarga
Ikan Tude, Jl. Blora
Sea Food di Pertokoan Bintaro Sektor 9, belakang Mc Donald Sektor 9
Sea Food depannya Bunderan PSKD IV Blok M
Sea Food Baruna, pojokan depannya Balemang Café
Sea Food Muara Angke: bisa beli Ikan (milih sendiri) dan minta bakarin disana.

G. SATE
Sate Kambing Muda, bintaro (perempatan bintaro, gerbang bintaro) top banget
Sate Kambing Jalan Karawang (makan siang) kalo bingung cari teriak Buyung ..aja
Sate Ayam bunderan Kolam Lembang
Sate Kambing pojokan jalan Sabang, depan kantor Polisi: ngantri selalu
Sate Kambing Ny. Semarang, Megaria/Metropole
Sate Kambing Jono, Jl. Pejompongan
Sate Pancoran, Jl Raya Ps. Minggu, deketnya ILP
Sate Kambing Bu Yanti, Duren Tiga
Sate Blok S, tetanggaan ama Baso Blok S, depan RS Kebayoran
Sate Cikajang, Ps. Santa
Sate Apotik Jaya, Panglima Polim
Sate Ayam Jl. Samba
Sate Ayam depan RS Pertamina: uenakk!
Sate Hadori, Jl. Bangka, cabangnya Bandung: katanyaJ
Sate Ayam di pertokoan Pondok Indah Plaza, dekat Mc Donald Pondok Indah Plaza (malam)
Sate Tri-M Pondok Indah, di pertokoan deket Ora et Labora Pondok Indah (siang)
Sate Kambing Pak Haji Jl. Karang Tengah, dekat perempatan Lb. Bulus (Hero Lb. Bulus) – Kr. Tengah

H. STEAK
Steak Cemara Art & Curio, Jl. Cemara
Steak di dalam pelataran Komplek Taman Ismail Marzuki IKJ
Steak 41, Jl Tendean, sebelahnya Golden Truly
Steak Rollies, di Kampung Tenda Semanggi: Chicken Steak nya enak, murah lagi
Bebek Balap, di Tenda Bis Tingkat Semanggi
Abuba (Abu Bakar), Cipete: awas banyak asep!
Kemang Steak, Jl. H. Nawi

I. GULAI / TONGSENG
Deketnya Mesjid Sunda Kelapa banyak yang gerobaknya
Sepanjang Jalan Karawang, hati-hati dikerubutin calo makanan (makanan aja ada calonya). Hubungi Buyung.
Jl. Mendut, deketnya Prambors, pas tikungan deket KONTRAS
GULTIK (Gule Tikungan): ada yang bilang Gule Tikus.....hiiii:-)
Sepanjang Bunderan Bulungan Blok M, awas banyak Pe*%#K- nya

J. SOTO / SOP
Sop Buntut, deketnya Mesjid Cut Mutiah, siang doank, kadang-kadang jam 13.00 udah abis
Soto Mie Jl. Cilacap, Menteng
Soto Mie YPK, depan RSB YPK, Jl. Gereja Theresia
M. Soleh Kumis 999, Jalan Blora
Soto Madura Ps. Baru, di pojokan seberang jalannya Mesjid Istiqlal
Soto Mie Jl. Lautze, Ps. Baru
Soto Madura Gubeng, Jl. Juanda, Sebelah Bank Mandiri (d/h Bank Exim)
Sop Buntut-nya Hotel Borobudur
Coto Makassar Kelapa Gading, Jl. Boulevard
Soto Betawi, tembusannya jalan Minangkabau
Soto Gebrak, di Lapangan Ros Tebet, yang enak pas tikungan, deketnya tukang Ban
Sop Konro, Makasar, di Jl. Lap Ros Tebet, awas ngantri
Sop Kambing Irwan, seberang RSB Asih, Melawai
Soto Kudus Blok A
Soto Ayam UKI Cawang letaknya di tengah lapang, agak terperosok ke dalam
Soto/Sop Ayam By Pass, di prempatan depannya Samsat Cipinang, yang ke arah tembusan
Otista, sebelah kiri setelah lampu merah
Soto Ayam Ambengan Surabaya, Jl. Walter Monginsidi
Soto Kudus Blok M, Jl. Radio Dalam

K. JAWA / SUNDA
§ Pecel Lele, Jl. Juanda depan Bank DKI
§ Dapsun (Dapur Sunda), (1) Jl Cipete 200m dari Golden Truly; (2) Jl. Gatot Subroto ex MBAU
§ RM. Nikmat Nusantara, jl. Kebon bawang 6/68, tg priok. deketnya kantor pajak jak-ut. Adanya siang doang. Cobain sop buntutnya deh.... top banget!!
§ Dapur Sunda Laksana, sebelah Bakmie GM Melawai
§ Gudeg di dalam Ps. Cikini
§ Gudeg Mbak Trie, depannya Lintas Melawai Club
§ Gudeg Lesehan Blok M, deketnya 5 a sec Blok M, Jl. Panglima Polim
§ Gudeg Lesehan deketnya Hotel Melawai: Sorry disini juga banyak PE..*#%..K nya

L. SUMATERA
Jalan Kramat deket Fly Over Senen, aneka masakan Padang di jual disana hati hati ketabrak mobil
Sate Padang depan supermarket Tip Top, Rawamangun
Sate Padang seberang Lippo Menteng
Sate Padang Goyang Lidah depan C0inere Mall
Sate Padang Mak Syukur, Food Court Pasaraya Blok M
Sate Padang, Plaza Pondok Indah, yang jualan Bo'ong kebanyakan udah bukan orang Padang lagi
Soto Padang Jl. Pintu Air, Ps. Baru
Restoran Aceh di Ps. Baru, deketnya Antara: Masakannya dicampur pake rempah-rempah, termasuk Ganja, tapi ueenaakk
Rumah Makan Medan Jaya, Gule Kepala Ikan sama Asam: ganja (?) nya Ok banget
Ayam Pop RM Sederhana: paling enak sih yang di Sabang

M. ASIA
§ Remaja (Chineese), Komp. Mal Kelapa Gading
§ Tanpa Nama (Jepang), Jl. Kebun Binatang, Cikini
§ Roku-roku (Jepang), sepanjang Jl. Fatmawati (dekat 5 a sec)
§ Restoran Trio Jl. Gondangdia Lama sudah top dari jaman opa oma

N. GADO-GADO / KETOPRAK
Gado-gado Jl. Tanjung, depannya Rumah Ponco, deket rumahnya Bambang: awas banyak tentara dan demo.
Gado-gado Jl. Cemara (dekat Ps. Boplo), bumbunya pake kacang mede
Gado-gado Jl. Kertajaya, jejeran Jl. Adityawarman
Gado-gado Jl. Kertanegara
Gado-gado Jl. Daksa
Ketoprak Jl. Sunda (dekat Sarinah), deketnya GM sama Inter Studi
Ketoprak Jl. Borobudur kalo ini deket kantor Divisi Tehnik Masima
Ketoprak di Lapangan Parkir Pacuan Kuda Pulo Mas
Ketoprak Atma Jaya, didalem Kantin Kampus Unika Atma Jaya: hehehehe bisa ngutang
Ketoprak STEKPI, dekat lapangan parkir STEKPI
Ketoprak Jl. Ciragil
Ketoprak Jl. Cikajang

O. SIOMAY / BAKPAU / LUMPIA
Siomay Dorongan Borobudur
Siomay Bulungan, depan GOR Bulungan
Siomay Bandung, Jl Cipete.
Siomay Senayan, Plaza Senayan Lt. Dasar, dekat Hero
Bakpau Theresia, dekat kompleks Gereja Theresia
Lumpia Jakarta, Jl. Pecenongan
Siomay pas depan Menteng Plaza

P. PEMPEK / OTAK-OTAK
Pempek Jl. Garuda, Kemayoran
Pempek Jl. Radio Dalam
Pempek di depan Lapangan Blok S, sebelah salon: Top!!
Otak - otak Jl. Sangaji, Tanah Abang:mahal oi... tapi es kelapa + kopyornya enak lho!
Otak-otak deketnya Mesjid Istiqlal: yang jualan pake dorongan

Q. MARTABAK / KERAK TELOR
Martabak Favorit Rawamangun, depannya Apotik Rini Rawamangun / Tiptop
Martabak Mesir Kubang, Jl. Sahardjo
Martabak Bandung, di Manggarai jalan Minangkabau (3A kalau nggak salah mereknya)
Martabak Tendean, di Restoran Mbok Berek Tendean
Martabak Bandung Fatmawati, deket Perempatan Cipete, yang enak yang sebelahnya Toko Karpet
Martabak Spotlite, (1) Jl. Fatmawati; (2) Jl. Cinere Raya
Martabak Bandung Blok M, deketnya Duta, Barito
Martabak Pela, cabangnya martabak Barito
Martabak Bangka yang deket RCTI, deket toko buah
Kerak Telor PRJ, pokoknya kalo yang jual orang Betawi pasti enak

R. TAHU / TOGE GORENG
§ Toge Goreng PLN Bogor, Top Banget, depannya Restoran Bogor Permai, Bogor yang di gubuk sebelah tukang sate
§ Tahu Isi Tiptop, Rawamangun
§ Toge Goreng Ps. Baru, belakang Metro, Gg. Tua Pek Kong
§ Di Jalan Ateri Pondok Indah, sebelon perempatan Komplek KOSTRAD (sore-malam)
§ Di pelataran RuKo Pondok Indah Plaza, biasanya mangkal deket Mc Donald

S. ES / JUICE
Juice Duren Ps. Cikini
Es Doger Jl Besuki
Es Krim Ragusa (Italia), Jl Veteran
Es Duren Matraman, Jl Matraman Raya
Es Kelapa / Kopyor - Otak-otak Jl. Sangaji
Es Doger / Es Kelapa Jl. Karawang
Es Palu Butung, jualannya di Sop Konro, atau restoran Makasar
Es Podeng Blok S, temenannya Sate Blok S

T. ASINAN / RUJAK
§ Asinan Jl. Kamboja, depan Tiptop Rawamangun, terkenal dari dulu.
§ Rujak Ulek/Serut/Juhi di Jl. Sabang depan Robinson
§ Di depan Markas KODAM JAK-SEL, dari Jl. Arteri Pondok Indah, yang mo ke PI, pas di perempatan KOSTRAD, belok kiri, * 100 meter sebelah kiri (ada pas siang doank)
§ Rujak Aceh di Pasaraya Blok M

U. KUE
Kue coklat Maison Benny, Jl. Cikini, dekat TIM
Pistales SMA III, Jl. Setia Budi
Kue Tradisional Ny. Ali, Jl. Kramat Pela
Toko Kue TV Jl. Cikajang: enak!!!
Martin, Pal Merah

V. ROTI BAKAR
§ Roti Bakar Edi, terkenal sejak jaman taon 80'an, di Jalan Daksa, ada jualan Nasi Uduk + Ayam, kalo pesen bilang aja, Nasi Uduk Ayam Injek-injek
§ Roti Bakar Wiwied, Jl Fatmawati, depannya ATM BCA Fatmawati, deket Komp. Keuangan
§ Roti Bakar Pondok Indah, deket RS Pondok Indah
§ Roti Bakar di Bunderan PSKD IV Blok M

Jakarta Tempoe Doeloe

2009-12-22T12:24:00.003+07:00

My hometown... Jakarta... the capital city of Indonesia, now maybe titled with Megapolitan city not anymore a metropolis city... with population more than 12 millions people at day and decrease 5% at night ^^ (cause some of them are commuters who live at the suburb or outside Jakarta area)... these pictures are Jakarta at some periods ago... nowadays very different, with sky-scraper building and else, busway, lots and lots vehicles... however this is still my home town... I was born there, live and grew up there... even now I'm in another city to have some my life adventures, but I'll be back to my hometown soon ^^

so... here are some pictures from Jakarta Tempoe Doeloe

Pasar Senen

(sekarang tetep jadi pasar yg ruame n muacet)

Bunderan Hotel Indonesia

(wahaha... sekarang udah ada air mancur 14M, plaza indo, grand indo)

Jatinegara

(tetep jadi daerah keramaian dan pusat grosir)

Patung Pancoran

(sekarang di sekelilingnya sudah banyak jalan fly-over)

Passer Baroe (baca: Pasar Baru)

(sekarang tetep jd pusat perbelanjaan, dan mulai dilestarikan oleh pemda DKI)

Stasiun Kota

(daerah kota, tetap menjadi daerah bernuansa kolonial belanda di Jakarta, bangunannya masih mirip2 seperti ini)

my first post

2009-12-21T16:17:00.000+07:00

hi...
actually i don't use to blogging.. but i'm trying now...
coz of my friends who are already blogging first persuade me to...
so this is my first post to my own blog...

the time i want to start blogging,
when it comes with webpage and blog title field, i've already confused what to give name or title to my blog...

but after some thoughts...
it ended up with S.Ho.O.T
it's a motto between someone special and me...

and along with i will try blogging...
maybe it will change..
coz i still learn to explore my self more in blogging...